Reoccurring Dream
I have a reoccurring dream sometimes that I’ve waded out in what feels like the ocean with someone who is like Cinchel combined with all of the people I have ever loved. We keep walking together farther out into the water and stop when all that is above the water is our heads and I say how happy I am. He says he is happy too-so happy he could just die at that very moment and it would be okay. We both then go down together-sort of just playfully immersing ourselves in the water but when I come up for air, I can’t see him. I’m scanning the top of the water for him and I can’t see anything but waves so I swim back to shore and look along the beach to see if he maybe left. I always go looking for him.
When I can’t find him along the shore, I go back into the water and open my eyes while I swim underneath. That’s when I see him standing very still with his enire body completely underneath. I lift him up with all of my strength so that he’s floating still on top of the water and it’s like the ocean bed turns into a mattress and the waves turn into blankets. But it’s too late for rescue breathing or CPR and there’s a sense of peace in his face as if he was simply suddenly anchored to the bottom of the ocean and didn’t struggle to breathe or live at all.